i'm getting closer. i mean, i still have about 5,000 pounds to go...but i'm getting there. little by little, i'm getting closer to my first goal...dropping below that 250 mark. i'm so close i can taste it (and it tastes a little like ben&jerry's cherry garcia...) but i digress.
i was actually so excited when i saw that number, i almost (ALMOST) got on and did more wii fit. you know, just so i could trick my body into weighing a little less before i had to post tonight. (and, you'll be happy to know i didn't even strip down for this weigh in!)
i chastised myself for sucking so much the week before last. and i've tried to get myself back on track. i have not doubled my workouts. i have not cut back to lettuce, bread, and water. but i can feel things changing. i'm doing Wii Fit when i can. i'm eating better...and eating less. not only am i starting to physically feel better, but i can feel the change in my mindset.
it's so much easier now to choose my food. i pick things that are yummy, but their main purpose is to fill me up...not to reward me for holding my temper and not chucking a 2nd-grader out a window that day. if i want dessert, i will actually pass up the regular pints of ice cream that are (sadly) still in the freezer and reach for a fruit/yogurt bar. (gotta tell ya, the frozen yogurt bars by weight watchers are YUMMY) i've actually changed my mind about what tastes good.
2 nights ago, i actually found myself craving...yes CRAVING something green with our dinner. it wasn't even an unhealthy dinner...turkey roast, potatoes, and corn. what's funnier? we even had a SALAD with it...but my body still wanted some green beans or asparagus.
and my 2 newest revelations? eat breakfast EVERY morning and snack when i'm hungry. until i made this decision to suck it up and lose the weight, i was NOTORIOUS for not eating breakfast. i would fix the girls something and then sit down and wait til lunch and not even bother fixing anything for myself. not sure why, but i haven't eaten breakfast for as far back as i can remember. i'm not doing anything elaborate...just a bagel, yogurt, or banana. something little, something easy, something i now can't live without. and the snacking??? yeah...when i'm hungry, i eat. i've heard it a million times. you've heard it a million times. if you're hungry...eat! you don't need to fix a huge meal, or even have a full plate of food. my favorite snack (especially in the evenings) is a little plate of pickles and olives. (sorry to offend those of you who don't like pickles and olives) but i had to find something that i LOVE and that wasn't awful for me that i could keep on hand at all times. i'm also totally addicted to cheese...so i keep a container of cheese in the fridge that's already cut into "snacking slices" and i allow myself 2-3 pieces per day. (if you remember my last post...i WILL cheat if i can get away with it. so, the key is to have it available, but in small portions)
let me tell you something else. i'm sitting here watching Biggest Loser while i type. and i am jealous of their workouts! crazy, huh? the first 2 or 3 times i did Wii Fit, i could feel it. i was tired, sweaty, and sore when i was done. now?? nothing! i'm increasing my time which is successful in raising my heart rate for a more effective workout. but that's about it. i cannot wait until we invest in EASports Active. nor can i wait until the weather changes and i can actually get outside to walk and (maybe) jog a little each day. (yes, i said jog, and if you just fell out of your chair, i'll give you a minute to pick yourself up and compose yourself) i actually want to be a bit out of breath, have a nice sweaty workout, and KNOW i'm busting my ass because i can feel it when i'm done.
i was honestly surprised tonight to step on the scale and see that i'm still consistently going down even though i don't feel it when i'm working out.
where'd my cheering section go??
i'm staying on track (or at least getting back on track after last week). and i intend to keep it up. but, it sure was nice when you all were here with me!
if i scared you off with threats of pictures of myself or disturbing mental images of weighing myself in the nude, i apologize. i will try not to do that again.
(oh...and to the lady on the red team on biggest loser? i'd like to punch you in the face.)