Tuesday, February 2, 2010


i'm getting closer. i mean, i still have about 5,000 pounds to go...but i'm getting there. little by little, i'm getting closer to my first goal...dropping below that 250 mark. i'm so close i can taste it (and it tastes a little like ben&jerry's cherry garcia...) but i digress.

i was actually so excited when i saw that number, i almost (ALMOST) got on and did more wii fit. you know, just so i could trick my body into weighing a little less before i had to post tonight. (and, you'll be happy to know i didn't even strip down for this weigh in!)

i chastised myself for sucking so much the week before last. and i've tried to get myself back on track. i have not doubled my workouts. i have not cut back to lettuce, bread, and water. but i can feel things changing. i'm doing Wii Fit when i can. i'm eating better...and eating less. not only am i starting to physically feel better, but i can feel the change in my mindset.

it's so much easier now to choose my food. i pick things that are yummy, but their main purpose is to fill me up...not to reward me for holding my temper and not chucking a 2nd-grader out a window that day. if i want dessert, i will actually pass up the regular pints of ice cream that are (sadly) still in the freezer and reach for a fruit/yogurt bar. (gotta tell ya, the frozen yogurt bars by weight watchers are YUMMY) i've actually changed my mind about what tastes good.

2 nights ago, i actually found myself craving...yes CRAVING something green with our dinner. it wasn't even an unhealthy dinner...turkey roast, potatoes, and corn. what's funnier? we even had a SALAD with it...but my body still wanted some green beans or asparagus.

and my 2 newest revelations? eat breakfast EVERY morning and snack when i'm hungry. until i made this decision to suck it up and lose the weight, i was NOTORIOUS for not eating breakfast. i would fix the girls something and then sit down and wait til lunch and not even bother fixing anything for myself. not sure why, but i haven't eaten breakfast for as far back as i can remember. i'm not doing anything elaborate...just a bagel, yogurt, or banana. something little, something easy, something i now can't live without. and the snacking??? yeah...when i'm hungry, i eat. i've heard it a million times. you've heard it a million times. if you're hungry...eat! you don't need to fix a huge meal, or even have a full plate of food. my favorite snack (especially in the evenings) is a little plate of pickles and olives. (sorry to offend those of you who don't like pickles and olives) but i had to find something that i LOVE and that wasn't awful for me that i could keep on hand at all times. i'm also totally addicted to cheese...so i keep a container of cheese in the fridge that's already cut into "snacking slices" and i allow myself 2-3 pieces per day. (if you remember my last post...i WILL cheat if i can get away with it. so, the key is to have it available, but in small portions)

let me tell you something else. i'm sitting here watching Biggest Loser while i type. and i am jealous of their workouts! crazy, huh? the first 2 or 3 times i did Wii Fit, i could feel it. i was tired, sweaty, and sore when i was done. now?? nothing! i'm increasing my time which is successful in raising my heart rate for a more effective workout. but that's about it. i cannot wait until we invest in EASports Active. nor can i wait until the weather changes and i can actually get outside to walk and (maybe) jog a little each day. (yes, i said jog, and if you just fell out of your chair, i'll give you a minute to pick yourself up and compose yourself) i actually want to be a bit out of breath, have a nice sweaty workout, and KNOW i'm busting my ass because i can feel it when i'm done.

i was honestly surprised tonight to step on the scale and see that i'm still consistently going down even though i don't feel it when i'm working out.

but, ummm....hulllloooohhh???
where'd my cheering section go??

i'm staying on track (or at least getting back on track after last week). and i intend to keep it up. but, it sure was nice when you all were here with me!

if i scared you off with threats of pictures of myself or disturbing mental images of weighing myself in the nude, i apologize. i will try not to do that again.


(oh...and to the lady on the red team on biggest loser? i'd like to punch you in the face.)


  1. I am so proud of you! and you have really been inspiring me too! I totally know what you mean about the breakfast thing. I haven't eaten breakfast in like ever either. Old habits are hard to break! I also feel you with the Wii. After a while it's just not a main source of cardio. I'm mostly using mine as a warm up before I get on the treadmill. I really like the strength & yoga are great. If you have Time Warner digital cable, on channel 445 is Free Exercise TV on Demand. There are all of the Biggest Loser videos on there and a ton of celebrity workouts. I'm doing Jillian Michael's ones now. They are totall kicking my butt and are awesome.
    Keep up the good work girlie! You ROCK!

  2. you are doing awesome girl! It's been over a month for me back on WW and I have lost ........are you ready............ 15lbs WASSUP!!!!!!!!!! So I do read your thoughts and it makes me feel less crazy for sure. Skinnycow ice cream is my new favorite thing! lol. Cottage cheese with 2 flat breads are bomb too. I just got under the 220 mark, so you getting under 250 is going to be so EXCITING! Can't wait for that post!

  3. awesome job, aja!! i'm reading from the oldest posts to most current, so not sure where you're at now, but you're doing much better than me!! i do a few crunches, some leg lifts, maybe some arm exercises with my 5lb weights and i qualify that as a workout!! =P although i have been known to occasionally do a biggest loser workout on channel 426, like someone mentioned above(it's 426 on TWC at my house) that channel rocks!! your posts crack me up...love your outlook/attitude!! keep it up and i'll keep being nosey and reading the blog!! =)